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home (a conditional love)

by proxygirl

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lyrics

i am a radio
you can turn me down you know
when the sky is high
with a silent sword
cause i am a radio
you can turn me down you know
when it's hot outside
and you don't wanna cry
cause i am a radio
i am a radio
you can turn me down when i go
you can turn me down when i go
cause i listen to you loud
i don't want to sound
like i'm running out
of words to describe how i feel
cause i am a radio
you can turn me down you know
when im not enough
when im breaking down
i listen to you loud
don't care about the other sounds
i love you?
i love you
cause you are my radio
even when you don't know
you can turn me down when i go
you can turn me down when i go
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
i don't care about you now
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
baby you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down baby
you can turn me down
you can turn me down
cause i am a radio
and i don't have to go
you can leave the car
and i'll stay here while you're gone
cause i am your radio
you can turn me down when i go
cause i am your radio
you don't have to go
baby you don't have to go
did you know that feeling's leaving
didn't know that feeling's leaving
did you know that feeling's leaving tonight
did you time it right to be here
did you time it right to be here
did you time it right to be here now
didn't know that feeling's leaving
did you know that feeling's meaning
did you know that feeling's leaving
didn't know that feeling's meaning
but i timed it right to be here
but i timed it right to be here
but i timed it right to be here now
i'm lost in my feelings
didn't know it'd be this hard
i'm lost in my dream
didn't wanna be this hard
but i timed it right to be here
but i timed it right to be here
but i found it right to be here now
i don't wanna leave here
but i want somewhere i feel free
i don't wanna leave here
but i've always hated it here
will i time it right to leave here
will i time it right to leave here
will i time it right to leave here now
cause you are not my mother
and you are not my father
don't get me wrong my sisters love me now
but i will take a new name
and i won't feel any shame
cause i've a right to be here
cause i've a right to be here
cause i've a right to be here now
i'm never coming back
i'm not gunna look back
i'm drowning my cellphone off
for the week
cause i'm leaving this town
cause i'm leaving this now
and i'm never coming back
i'm not regretful
and i'm not spiteful
but i've gotten so frightful being 'round you
i just wanna be my
oh i just wanna be my
i just wanna be myself
cause i just wanna be my
oh i just wanna be my
i just wanna be my self
and all i feel like' crying
cause all my world is dying
and i don't wanna try anymore
don't look at me anymore
i just wanna be my
i just wanna be my
i just wanna be my self
i just want a brand new start
i know life gets real hard
but i don't wanna die
and i don't wanna cry
i just want a brand new start
i know life gets real hard
but i don't wanna die
and i don't wanna cry
i just want a brand new start
i don't wanna cry
yeah i know life's hard
but it don't gotta be this hard
oh my g-d i'm falling through
blood in stains around my room
oh my g-d i'm feeling dark
i'm feeling dark
i'm feeling dark
cause it's halloween
and i don't have a thing to see
my costume wore me out
and i don't wanna doubt myself
cause i really don't wanna roll back
i'll find myself bleeding—why?
g-d i'm lost?
...and i'm lost
don't treat me like you're post malone
i just want to go home
don't look at me i'm not someone on the tv
oh i will know when i'm there
or die so soon
are you there?
in the evening dusk alone
to die to know
cause i just want a brand new start
i know life can get real hard
but i don't wanna die
and i don't wanna cry
leave me out
i don't wanna die
be yourself
be yourself
oh my g-d i've fallen down
easier than feeling down
easier than getting down
easier than going down
oh my g-d i'm feeling down
easier than fallen down
easier than going down on you
oh my g-d i'm falling down
easier than feeling down
easier than going down on you
sufjan taught me chords
and car seat headrest taught me bar (chords)
and i don't know where to go from here
cause i am nothing
...i hear
oh g-d
oh i don't believe in g-d
but i'm sitting here in my remorse
i need some kind of dog to help me down
help me now my love
don't stop
in my heart
wind chimes for you
hold you
i know you never meant for me to
but why'd you want to leave me
you're feeling like a party in my head
"cause you are nothing"
i am holding on
"you are nothing" and
"you are nothing"
just love, hell, stale air
am i dead
is anyone there?
"you are nothing"
"you are nothing"
but i know i am something in my head
let me sing till i am dead
let me sing till i am dead
i just want a brand new start
don't wanna be your martyr
i'm alone again
and i am your friend
i just want a brand new start
don't look at me like i'm dead
i'm no ghost
i'm your host
(i don't feel anything)
(i don't feel a thing)
(i don't feel a thing)
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no - no no no
no i'm not your girl
i'm not your boy
i'm not your friend
i'm not your type
i'm not your dog
"i'm not your father"
i'm not your brother
i'm not your friend
i'm not your son
i'm not your sin
"i'm not your father"
i'm not your dick
i'm not your c***
i'm not your sea
i'm not your sodom
"i'm not your friend"
i'm not your son
i'm not your freedom
i'm not your sinner
i'm not your g-d
i'm not your gay
i'm not your guy
i'm not your guise
i'm not your sun
i'm not your hero
"i'm not your dad"
i'm not your heroine
i'm not your friend
i'm not your freedom
i'm not your dreams
i'm not you leaving
i'm not your son
i'm not your friend
i'm not your sin
i'm not your freedom
i'm not your friend
i'm not your dreams
i'm not your love
now that you're leaving
i'm not your love
i'm not your love
i'm not your love
i'm not your love
cause i'm a girl
and you're not my world
cause i'm a girl
and you're not my world
end on a bad note
end on a bad note
cause nothing ever ends well
and all that's well will end well
cause i'm not your son
not your friend
not your love
not your dreams
not your friend
not your victory over sin
i'm not your dreams
i'm not your friend
not your victory over sin
even though they're not religious
i'm not your love
i'm not because
you don't love me
and therefor i don't love you

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released October 31, 2017

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