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audiodiary 18

by proxygirl

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1.
intro 00:45
2.
dust and dirt 04:04
lyrics
in a dark corner of your house you will find yourself in a dark corner of your house you will find yourself, hidden like a mouse you see the cobwebs on the floor they're there for good and you wish that you were too you see the cobwebs on the floor they're there for good and you wish that you were too but no amount of hiding will do you good you might as well pull on through no amount of hiding will do you good you might as well pull on through the dirt on the floor it's there for good and you wish that wasn't you would you sit by and watch your house burn if you knew it was because of you the smoke fills the room like clouds of gloom is this the end of you would you still idle by and watch your house burn if you knew it was because of you the smoke fills the room like clouds of doom this is the end of you
3.
weak 03:29
lyrics
weak weak weak are the weak are the waves in my silhouette by the water, at night dim dim dim are the dim are the lights above my head when i walk in the dark those were the days these are the days in the night when im feeling alright, for once in a while these are the days when im feeling alright weak weak weak are the weak are the waves in my silhouette by the water side weak weak weak are the waves in my silhouette by the water those were the days those were the days when i used to walk outside at night those were the days when i loved myself on the in- weak weak weak are the words weak are the words that i speak to you dim dim dim are the lights dim are the lights that are above our heads as we remember that those were the days those were the days that i -
4.
take your time 01:10
lyrics
you take your time but you're weary of time constraints is there ever enough to think of the right thing to do you take your time but you're weary inside in case you don't think about the right thing to do you hide your mind away from the outside in case something bad happens to you don't let anyone see what's on the inside of you that'd be too much of you too handle
5.
floor of your car 02:22
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oh do you do you mind sleeping on the floor tonight oh do you oh do you mind sleeping on the floor it's all i got tonight oh do you oh do you mind me at all you're all i got tonight after all oh do you oh do you mind sleeping on the floor of the car it's all i got tonight oh do you oh do you mind me with you it's all i- oh do you oh do you mind sleeping on the floor
6.
to wake next to you 04:13
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i find it hard to go outside at night when i know you're still awake i tried to find a place to drive but i just see the lake i want to know what it feels like to be with someone when i wake up i want to watch the sun set and rise with someone by my side oh i want you when i wake i want you when the sun comes up i want you when i wake i want you when the sun comes up i want you when i wake i want you when the sun comes up i find it hard to realise just what i want to do with you i find it hard to expedite just what you want me to but i want to when i wake i want to when the sun comes up i want to know what it feels like to be with someone when i wake up i want to know what it feels like to look into your eyes and oh- i want to know what it feels like to look into your eyes when the sun rises and i want to when i wake i want to when the sun comes up i want to when i wake i want to when the sun comes up but i find it hard realise oh what i want to do with you i find it hard to expedite just what you want me to but i want to when i wake i want to when the sun comes up i want to when i wake oh i want to when the sun comes up (ahhh) (im fucked) (ahhh) i want you when i wake i want you when the sun comes up i want you when i wake i want you when the sun comes up
7.
out tonight 03:41
lyrics
you got to lay low before you come on home you can't come home it's too hot to hide in your room you would melt to your death in your room you would d- d- d- d- you got to lay low before you come on home you can't come home it's too hot to hide in your room you would melt to your death in your room you would d- d- d- d- you're a day old tomato slumped in the back seat of your car is this life is this life is this life is alive-- you got to lay low before you come on home you can't come home it's too hot inside in your room you would melt to your death in your room you would d- d- d- d- you got to lay low before you come on home you can't come home it's too hot inside you got to wait till your parents lie down you got to wait till they all lie down you're a day old tomato slumped in the back seat of your car is this life is this life is this-- you got to stay out tonight you got to give them a chance to fight wait till the fighting dies down wait till you hear the d- d- d- d- d- d- you got to stay out tonight you got to give them a chance to fight wait till it all dies down wait till the d- d- d- d- d- d- ... you're a day old bag of grass sitting on the neighbor's lawn is this life is this life is this li- you got to stay out tonight you got to give them a chance to fight you got to wait till the fighting dies down you got to wait till the d- d- d- d- you got to stay out tonight you got to give them a chance to fight you got to wait till the fighting dies down you got to wait till the d- d- d- d- you're a day old tomato in the back seat of your car is this life is this life --- there's day old tomatoes in the back seat of your car *accidentally speaking backwards in real time?* they're day old tomatoes in the back seat of my car is this life is this life you're a day old tomato in the back seat of your car is this life is this life is--
8.
la la la 02:53
lyrics
*feeling noises*
9.
we were young 02:01
lyrics
your eyes are watering from the wind when it hits you it's okay that happens to me too be strong with your head down and your eyes on his shoulders it gives you something to think about when you're walking he didn't know what he wanted to say no he didn't know that i was young (x2)
10.
pale lips 01:51
lyrics
showing your lips to pale and frayed disgraced and bundled in sticks with no face she knows she knows she knows i'm nothing much don't go showing your lips to pale and frayed disgraced and bundled in sticks with no face she knows she knows what i'm like feast upon my lonely eyes with her vigilant ways despite my cries oh she knows she knows she knows i'm nothing much but i wouldn't have it any other way without no face what's the point in trying trying to see through the rain well i wouldn't have it without pain i love you love you love you love it anyways
11.
our first anniversary 04:49
lyrics
(hello no one is available to take your call please leave a message after the tone) fuck i've lost my words shit i've dropped my phone but most of all i wish i could carry a call fuck i've lost my words shit i've dropped my phone but most of all wish i could carry a call at all fuck i've lost my words shit i've dropped my phone but most of all i wish i could carry this call all night long fuck i'll sing a song but it might be long i don't think i can carry a song at all fuck i've lost my words shit i've dropped my phone but most of all i wish i could carry this call all night long fuck i've lost my words again shit i've dropped my phone again but most of all i wish i could be with you all night long so for the sake of late night calls i will keep you hanging until you fall asleep so that when you wake i'll be there for you and for the sake of late night calls you will keep me hanging until i fall asleep so that when i wake you'll be there for me (please leave a message after the tone) and for the sake of late night calls he will keep you hanging until i fall asleep and for the sake of midnight calls i will stay awake until you fall asleep so that when you wake i'll be there for you
12.
go ahead 04:41
lyrics
go ahead i don't care if you stay but what if you're already on the plane when? go ahead i don't care if you stay but what if you're already on your way when i've decided that i need you to stay go ahead i don't care if i stay but what if i'm already on my way when you've decided that you want me to stay i go ahead i don't care if i stay but what if i'm already on the train when i've decided that i think we should stay go ahead i don't care if you wait i'm sure that i'll see you there or along the way go ahead i don't care if i wait i'm sure that i'll see you there or along the way go ahead i don't care if we stay but i'll keep thinking of things that will make you stay go ahead i don't care if you wait but i'll keep thinking of things that will make us stay look i don't care if you stay i'm sure that ill see you there or along the way
13.
art school 03:19
lyrics
follow the pointing fingers of statues in the museums they point towards the exit and make you want to go home fuck me if i understand why does everything have to have some meaning everything's a metaphor for life and for death it doesn't mean anything to me does it mean anything to you? well if the answer is yes i might as well go home and undress wait till death do me part me and this simple life i might as well go home and undress before the judgment and the test wait till death do me part me and this stupid mind follow the pointing fingers of the statues in the museums they point towards the exit and make me want to go home cause i don't understand will i ever understand all these metaphors for life and for death is art not just art is art not just art for the sake of being art doesn't mean anything to me but does it mean something to you? if the answer is yes i might as well give up my instruments my drum sticks i can never picture us afraid in the line with my heart oh look towards the longing gazes of the people at the gala they point towards the beauties and say for eternity they'll stay it's hard to go alone in the hallway so poorly lit it's hard to go alone in the darkness of today
14.
nothing 04:48
lyrics
it doesn't have to be about anything it doesn't even have to be about you you it doesn't have to be about anything it doesn't even have to be about you i looked out of the window at the cloudy night sky and through the fog from your breath i said oh my god i can see the clouds in your eyes eyes it doesn't have to be about anything it doesn't even have to be about you you it doesn't have to be about anything but it always ends up being about you cause through the fog on your window inside your car i looked up at the sky and i said oh my god i can see the stars in your eyes i can see the stars in your eyes i know it doesn't have to be about anything it doesn't even have to be about you you but it always do i looked out of the window from inside your car and through the fog from your breath i said oh my god you have the prettiest eyes you have the prettiest eyes i should i should try i should try some time just don't try at all i should try i should try i should try i should try sometime just don't try at all it doesn't have to be about you and me oh i know i try, but i'm thinking about you you i should try i should try i should try to not try at all it's impossible i should try i should try i should try to not try at all it's impossible i could try i could try to not try at all, time but it's impossible i could try i could try i could try to not try at all well it's impossible i could try i could try i could try to not try at all but it's impossible well i looked out of the window through the fog from your breath and the cloudy night sky reflect in your eyes and i said oh my god i can see the clouds in your eyes it's impossible well i could try i could try i could try to make it about nothing at all but that'd be a lie i know it doesn't have to be about anything at all it doesn't have to be about anything it doesn't have to be about you or more but that's impossible
15.
summer of divorce 03:50
lyrics
check that shit check that shit oh the weather here has a mind of its own i can't decide whether i should stay or go home oh is there a way to live happily involved oh the weather here has a mind of its own i cant decide weather i belong here or home is there a way for me to be- and my father he has a home of his own and my mother she out on her own is there a way for us to be- my mother she has a life of her own and my father he lives his life all alone is there no way for us to be together oh and the weather here is much nicer than home i can't decide whether i belong here or home is there no way for me to be- oh the weather here is much nicer than home i can't decide whether i belong here or home is there no way for me to be happy oh i oh die oh i'd rather die i'd rather die i left you behind oh i i left you behind oh die oh the weather here is much nicer than home how can you expect me to be who i want to be oh you know why how can you expect me to be who i want to be cause the weather here is much nicer than home but i can't decide whether i belong here or home it don't matter i've got nobody to text all day and night it don't matter cause this is where i want to be
16.
tell me the truth 03:22
lyrics
if someone told me that i was gone well i'm bound to believe them oh yes i would believe them but if someone told me that you were gone no i wouldn't believe them i couldn't' believe them if i tried people tell me that life moves on but i don't want to believe them i don't want to believe that we are through someone told me to go outside but would i cry would i cry someone told me to step outside but would i cry if someone told that i was gone well i'm bound to believe it oh yes i would believe it but if someone told me that you were gone forever well no i wouldn't believe it i couldn't believe it if i tired all these people tell me that life moves on i don't want to believe it i don't want to believe that these people tell me to step outside but i think i'd die if i knew if i knew the truth these people tell me to step outside but i think i'd die if i knew if knew the truth well the people tell me that life moves on but i don't want to believe no couldn't believe that one more time cause people tell me to step outside but i think i'd die if i knew if knew the truth cause people tell me to step outside but i think i'd die if i knew if knew the truth
17.
morning grave 12:29
18.
set in stone 02:17
lyrics
i'd shut my eyes i'd shut my ears if i could i'd close my head in the door if i knew that it would stop me from seeing the way things are i'd shut my eyes i'd shut my ears if could i'd shut my head in the door if i knew that it would stop me from seeing stop me from seeing the way things are la la la la love la la la la la la la la la la love the way things are la la la la love la la la la la la la la la la love the way things are i'd shut my eyes i'd shut my ears if i could i'd close my head in the door if i knew that it would stop me from seeing the way things are la la la la love la la la la loath la la la la la love the way things are la la la la love la la la la loath la la la la la love the way things are
19.
autumn kiss 03:01
lyrics
autumn is over and winter is over our head kiss on the floor in the shadow of doors they've yet to check and the write on the wall is the same as before but today you notice more and the tick of the clock is not nonstop nonstop and the tick of the clock is not nonstop nonstop take the other way the clock will not stop for you, we can't lose time, we can't lose time the clock is not nonstop if you look at it long enough we can't lose time we can't lose time
20.
middle school 10:57
21.
outro 06:37

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