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middle school fantasy
04:07
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tisk tisk tisk tisk
headaches, heartbreaks no one's gunna find you
hiding behind landlocked eyes
come back what's that falling off the couch there
hair trimmed short, living a lie
little boy, 9 turning 10, no one knows what's wrong with him
hiding in his sheets, never on the streets
you are not a star, and you will not go far
headbreaks, heartarches, no one's gunna fight you
it's all a lie to get yourself to cry
but stop now what's that getting all dressed now
(i am here, i don't want to be near you)
you shouldn't put your shirt on before your pants
a little boy thought to be gay
confronted by his parents in an evil way
hiding in his sheets, no honesty
you will not go far, and you are not a star
stop now what's that dripping down your leg now
i am fearful, i just want to dress up
but after tonight, i just want to hide it
you are silent, tell me what's inside you
i am not like
tell me what's in side you
we are not like them
we are not like humans
inhuman inhuman eyes
inhuman inhuman mind
we're unnautural
it's unnatural to be inclined to live another life
that you don't have the biology or the support you need to see it thru
so it's not real i don't think i feel that way
just label me gay and send me on my way
headaches, heartbreaks no one's gunna find you
hiding behind landlocked eyes
come back what's that falling off the couch there
hair trimmed short, living a lie
little boy, 9 turning 10, no one knows what's wrong with him
(don't be afraid to show them, if you don't lie heroes will reign)
hiding in his sheets, never on the streets
(find something to read, if you can't see)
you are not a star, and you will not go far
(they will not believe if you are not there)
headbreaks, heartarches, no one's gunna fight you
(no will can define you)
it's all a lie to get yourself to cry
but stop now what's that getting all dressed now
(what's that getting by my bedroom)
you shouldn't put your shirt on before your pants
(i am fearful, i don't you near me)
a little boy thought to be gay
confronted by his parents in an evil way
(no one cares)
hiding in his sheets, no honesty
(no one cares no one cares)
you will not go far, and you are not a star
(no one cares no one cares)
no one cares
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paradise aisle
03:01
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remember when she took us to the matinee
and barely stayed awake thru the whole thing
the curtains drawn, she hands us her palm and we leave
we're goin back to wichita or maybe now it's arkansas
the highway's clear and we have no fears till we get there
and if you're gunna leave won't you take me with you please
oh we can find a way to make every end meet
remember when she took us to the store on a friday night
and no one knew where we were
my sisters and i walked thru the aisles and we were in paradise
and now you're in paradise
i want to know where you are
if you're not in the stars
then how did i get this far
cause you alone at my debut show were the only one from my home
as i sang:
the beast that shouted love at the heart of the world'
there's nothin to see except
the beast that shouted love at the heart of the world
say goodbye, winter time
hold me tight in the fleece that you buy
holy night, nothing to cry about now
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you are not a star
04:20
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so tell me now how i don't know what i want
as i'm spilling my dreams and they say i can't sing
but god speed to thee thru the birnam wood leaves
another christmas so bleak i want nothing but to leave
i know what you are and you are not a star
i know what you are and you are not a stat
i know what you are and you are not a star
oh how they sang to me over christmas eve
you will never be that which you seek
i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing
cause you tell me
i am nothing
cause you tell me
i know just what you are and you are not a star
i know just what you are and you are not a star
i know just what you are and you are not a star
i know just what you are and you are not a star
i know just what you are and you are not a star
i know just what you are and they said you are not a star
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here and now
03:55
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i walk thru a past of fear and lore
i cannot trust my mind
to represent the passing of time
with true efficiency
but here and now i'm feeling alright
i'm feeling alright
i'm feeling alright
and here and now i swim in your eyes
i'm trying to find a feeling
that left my heart long ago
i may never know again
i cry in class oh i break like glass
what is going on
oh i have changed i am not the same
what is happening
here and now you're feeling alright
you're feeling alright
you're feeling laright
but here and now you search thru my eyes
you're trying to find a feeling
that left your life long ago
you may never know again
i talk to your cat of what i lack
she keeps me company
she walks with me as i creep the fridge
and start to realise
that here and now i'm feeling alright
and i'm feeling alright
and i'm feeling alright
but here and now i swim in your etyes
i'm trying to find a feeling
that left my life long ago
i may never know again
i stalk my past with a kind of lust
that comes with a fee'
my fireball have rolled away
but i am not alone
cause here and now you're feeling alright
and you're feeling alright
and you're feeling alright
but here and now you look in my eyes
you're trying to find a feeling
that lefty your life long ago
you may never know again
but here and now we're feeling alright
and we're feeling alright
and we're feeling alright
here and now we're wasting our time
not looking for a thing
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when you're lacking
04:38
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ice caked on the morning windshield
that i don't feel like scraping
so i drive and just stop caring
cause sometimes shit just doesn't feel right
and you don't see and ending
but i know you should be hearing
that you are
you are a star
don't get lost in the dark
that you are
you are a star
don't get lost in the dark
but i hate waking up to sunlight
from staying up till 4
always trying to do more
still dreams fall harder than a landslide
is it just a waste of time
if nothing ever happens
cause you are
you are a star
(you're solar)
don't get lost in the dark
and in the morning, the sun shines in your room
love is falling thru
and in the night, time is no object, you lie alone
plans are falling thru
and i don't care what they say, i'm all okay
their love fucked me up
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new fear
05:12
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let this be the last song running down the river wrong
it's the end of the year and i've nothing to fear
let this be the last time i'm laying in bed at night
telling my self lies, oh i am not enough
but it's a new year with new fears
so let this be the last song running down the river wrong
it's a new year, with new fears
so let this be the last time i'm running 'round my head at night
it's a new year, with new fears
like the passage of time and still feeling lonely
and reaching for goals that come so slowly
i'm falling out of sync with life
but i'll fall back in, i'm switching things up
and not giving fucks, cause i'm barely above the water
as a deep freeze descends on the town and my life
i can't stand when there's no sunlight
cause me and my shit guitar reach for the stars
(you are not a star)
(i am not a star)
no matter how much i cry
everything's the same as before i cried
no matter how hard i try
everything's the same as before i tried
no matter how far i drive
i'm still runnin from the same problems in my mind
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