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waiting for you
04:38
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there he watched and he said
where are you goin
he said i don't get to see you much anymore
then he knelt down to the ground
and cried out for you
he said i don't think i can see you anymore
i wish i was crazy i would step outside
and say oh my my my
how this time flied
breath
breath
i wish i was crazy i would go back in time
and tell myself a lie oh it's not much longer
our arms are weak and they will not get stronger
oh it's not much farther just hold on tighter
oh i will wait for you
that's right
maybe you just need somebody
that can override all the pain inside
maybe your body tryin to tell you that it's not me
maybe you should listen, well
maybe not i can't help but think you're for me
looked at your eyes
could tell you would cry
so he held on too tight
cause he never did mind
since you came here on your own
but would you leave here all alone
oh you came here on your own
would you leave here all alone
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hollow highs
03:41
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hollow but i'm sweet
please be high with me
follow thru with me
knee high in a dream
somethin about the weather makes it feel like forever you need
somethin about the weather makes you feel like whatever you need
don't think about it ever but some can live forever decieved
don't think about the nevers a dream that lasts forever for me
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
somethin about the weather makes it feel like forever you need
somethin about the weather makes you feel like whatever you need
don't think about it ever but some can live forever decieved
don't think about the nevers a dream that lasts forever for me
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
i know it's a dream when i feel you there
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everything is wrong
05:58
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fork turned to me with pointing fingers as it said what are you looking at
told it that i was not afraid, what do you think this is a fucking game
i swore to myself that i wouldn't break it, but i bent it beneath my feet
i'm such an angry person when i'm alone with my brain
i'm such an angry person when i'm alone with my brain
i'm such an angry person when i'm alone with my brain
i'm such an angry person when i'm alone with my brain
i'm such an angry person when i'm alone with my brain
???
when i say: what the fuck am i
knife turned towards me with open arms
the fork resisted, but it wouldn't be long
knife turned towards me with an open mind
i try to resist it, but it won't be long
in pieces i sleep and to the old days dream
what on earth could be wrong with me
i think i might weep, but the new day brings
someone on earth that's not wrong with me
knife turned towards me with open arms
the fork resisted, but it wouldn't be long
knife turned towards me with open eyes
i try to resist it, but it won't be long
knife turned towards me with open arms
the fork resisted, but it wouldn't be long
knife turned towards me with open eyes
i try to resist it, but it won't be long
knife turned towards me with open an open
i try to resist him, but it won't be long
knife turned towards me with open an open
i try to resist him, but it won't be long
???
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crying after graduation
04:57
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fine times no tears
06:50
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(i've just been sitting here with my legs crossed
hoping something will happen
i like it better when you're on top)
he's finally got his feet in the water
but to be honest it's a little cold
(and he didn't know why)
never mind what's in his mind
they're in hot water
feels the onset of his withering bone
(tshh)
he's finally in his seat with a water
but to be honest this feels a little old
never mind what's in his mind
it's a different kind of
a feeling that he must deny
bet you'd wished you'd watched him from the doorway
just to survey his scene
watched you watch me with cold eyes on me
bet you'd wished you'd stayed out of the hallways
never seen me
watch me miss those cold eyes on me
something happens now i'm screaming head over heels
do i ever find out, is this even real
something happens now i'm screaming head over heels
do i ever find out, is this even real
i should be so grateful to live a persona to the grave
but i'm not
it should be no sweat for us to hold up one more second
oh i should be so straight, but now in my dreams i can't really relate
my friends just say i'm stressed out, but i don't even know what this is about
if it's just about sex with you, i don't really know what we can do
it seems like it's more about me than you
it should be so sweet for us to wait a thousand weeks
i would take you if i could
it might be a few more weeks until i find myself in my sheets
i wouldn't fake it if i could
don't get me wrong tho these are fine times
don't get me wrong tho these are fine times
don't get me wrong tho these are fine times, no tears
don't get me wrong tho these are fine times, i want you to know that
don't get me wrong tho these are fine times, no tears
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the sun
peace
one love
remnants of last night still on your mind
but i wake up
the carpet is really uncomfortable
when you've been sitting on it for a long long time
someone please stop me from staying up so late
i think it's starting to effect how i think about you
(i can't stop thinking about you)
i get up and i walk across the lawn
i try to make sure i don't make eye contact with the neighbors
i never want to talk to, i never want to talk to them
i'm sure they think i'm a real asshole
but i push it out of my mind like a do a lot of other things
and i carry on
peace
one love
and i drive, and i drive
i make sure that the parking breaks not on this time
that caused a lot of trouble for everyone around you
last time, but it seems like that happens a lot
i'm at the gas station now
and there's a lot of people around
and it's makin me feel a bit uncomfortable to get out of my car
(i wish i could live my life in third person)
i'm self-conscious about every part of who i am
oh i don't needn't to feel this way when i've got nothin to hold me back
when has that ever been enough
(of who i am)
when has that ever been enough
(i am never happy with who i am)
when has that ever been enough
(i am never happy with who i am meant to be)
when has that ever been enough
(we are never happy with who we are meant to be)
peace
one love
i pull out in front of traffic
as my gps re-routes me across the town
it's gunna take 15 minutes if i don't slow down
this is kinda dangerous
driving when you're this tired
i think i daydreamed about half of the drive to get there
i can't remember a single thing
i don't think i thought about anythin
besides not having to pay money to get out of this town
why should i have to pay money to get away from everybody
oh baby
i have no baby
how'd i end up so off the road
can i help myself back to where i'm headed
i'm dreadin goin back to rome
when in rome i'm always afraid because
how'd i end up so off the road
can i help myself back to where i'm headed
i'm dreadin goin back to rome
when in rome i'm always afraid of love
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i fucking hate myself
04:11
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can you tell i fucking suck at this
i wanna know, can i tell you about somethin i know
i know i'm fucking dumb as shit
you're fucking dumb
you're dumb as shit
you sit around hoping that this shit will fix itself
you're fucking dumb
you're dumb as shit
you sit around like you've learned to live with it
can you tell, right now i fucking hate myself
i wanna know, can i tell you about something i know
i know
that's why they say it's hard to go alone
in the darkness of today
it's hard to go alone in the darkness of today
it's hard to go alone in the darkness of today
is there someone out there that can help us try and save the world
in the darkness of today
is there someone out there can help us try and save the world
in the darkness of today
is there someone out there world
is there someone out there world
in the darkness of today
is there someone out there world
can you tell i know i'm fuckin dumb,
can you learn to live with it
can you tell i know i'm fuckin dumb
can you learn to live with it
i fuckin live with it
fuckin shit
i fucking learn to live with shit
you've learned to live with shit
you've learned to live
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censored
02:22
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well you know what they say
yeah, you know what i say
that people in love are obssessed with things
things that last forever
people in live are obsessed with things
things that last forever
but it never works out that way
and i am always in pain
yeah, it never works out that way
and as a result i'm always in pain
i wanted to eat pie and find out why
why oh why did you leave me like this inside
yeah, yeah i hate it
yeah, i [LOVE] you now
right now i [LOVE]you
now i [LOVE]you
now i [LOVE]you
do you find it easiest to pretend like that
oh, like nothing ever happened between us
i find it kinda funny i find it kinda sad
that nothin ever felt so bad
there's nothing like you
there's no one like you
no one could have ever hurt me like you do
it's not fair
it's not fair
i just wanna ***
oh *** inside
i hate myself cause you wanted someone else
i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself
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designer cadet comes out when he's dressed
he kissed your feet and he held his own
but he doesn't know where to go from here
he says put your clothes back on
this is how it's supposed to work
but how is that ever supposed to work
so he lies on his sheets
as he puts on disdress
can he see, can he hear, can he hear what you look like
the design on his wall
's witnessed him fall
and he asks have you ever seen this shit before
cadet take a second
take a second to listen
is there anybody out there?
you're a little too far out there now
somewhere in his heart
cadet goes thru your armoire
it's creepy he's a fuck
but don['t hate him that's just his luck
somewhere in the dark
you can see his eyes dart
you can tell there's something up
he doesn't seem quite right to you
designer cadet comes out when he's stressed
oh remember this moment, oh please will you
say it don't matter much how you like to be touched
we will never think less of what is in your head
designer cadet is forever in debt
to whoever has chosen to be with him
and why not you if there ever was one
who was willing to love me for who i am
and don't be shy to share what you're hiding
it may only scare yourself
i mean come on it's 2016, whatever that means
it shouldn't matter much at all
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growing pains
04:24
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everyday they wake up and say the day is mine mine mine mine mine
but they are young
and they have yet to accept their own mortality
i bet it's fun, to sit and watch
watch them break and fall apart on live cds
of the worst thoughts from their mind
i live tv of all the drama in their lives (lies)
the drama of a separable being
it comes and goes, but with age will you outgrow
it comes and goes, but with age will you outgrow it
it comes and goes, but with age will you outgrow it, maybe
it comes and goes, but with age will you outgrow it, maybe
it comes and goes, but with age will you outgrow this, maybe
i hate the sun
i hate the sun
he knows that you're leavin
and he knows he'll have to grow up soon
before the moon erases you
a bitter evening turns into restless sleep
and he knows that you're leavin
and he knows you'll have to grow up soon
before the moon erases you
and he knows that you're leavin
and he knows you'll never grow up too
no matter where you're headed to
i know you'll still look back to see me wavin to you
and he screams for redemption and he thinks it over in his mind and comes to the conclusion never mind
never mind
never mind
never mind me
and goes but with age will you outgrow
it comes and goes, but with pain will you outgrow
it comes and goes, but with pain will you outgrow it
it comes and goes, but with pain will you outgrow it, maybe
it comes and goes, will you pick up the damn phone
i can't see your eyes behind your sunglasses
what are you hiding
now's the time to show your eyes
there's no reason to be fasting
why would you starve yourself to death
this isn't no middle school fantasy
this isn't no middle school fantasy
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i hesitate to open my mouth
i'm not the most comfortable right now
you hesitate to speak how you feel
you're not the most confident right now
i hesitate to open my mouth
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
this is not the end
is not the end
just the drama of separable beings
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