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a black hole forms
05:02
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if you are not a star
then you know just what you are
you're a black hole building up from afar
out there where the light
distorts with the time
and you can't see what's before your eyes
if you strain your sunken mind
you can tell you're still alive (a lie)
slowly eating up all the light
but you'll come out of the dark
and you'll look just like a star
and no one will tell you you aren't
but i wanna know if i play the part
will i be all alone, will it finally be art
cause even now, i'm falling out
with my hometown heroes and i don't want new friends
it's an unfair exchange at a compelling rate
they'll revel in friendship and i'll fall to shame
will you take me back where the buffalo roam
when i end up a hack and i'm crashing alone
if you are not a star
then you know just what you are
you're a black hole building up from afar
out there where the light
distorts with the time
and you can't see what's before your eyes
if you strain your sunken mind
you can tell you're still alive (a lie)
slowly eating up all the light
but you'll come out of the dark
and you'll look just like a star
and no one will tell you you aren't
tell me what the difference is
if i'm no failure what is this
it's never been for my ego's sake
i just wanna feel okay
life gets different and you can't predict it
so i hide in my room and i trash the mixes
but i'll be there when shit hits the fan
i just want to help you feel
i'll take you back where the buffalo roam
and maybe we can escape for a while
if we never let the song stop
you are no black hole
you are not a black hole
light moves with time
and there will always be time
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dreams on fire
03:16
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(sometimes it feels like that but now it's getting too predictable)
(hold me)
(where are we)
i had a talk with my folks and i don't wanna go on
they made my dreams seem like nothing but a lost cause
and now i just wanna mock myself with an annoying song
so here we are, you are not a fucking star
what if they're right
feeding the fire
felt right at the time
but you're not a liar
what if they're right
feeding the fire
felt right at the time
but you're not a lyre
what if they're right
feeding the fire
felt right at the time
but you're not a liar
(but you are not a lyre)
i am falling thru the cracks
i lack the confidence to pack a punch
i just don't know the difference
between my life and what i dream
now it's 5am and i've nothing to show for myself
now it's 5 years later and i've nothing to show for myself
now it's 5am and i've nothing to show for myself
now it's 5 years later and i've nothing to show for myself
(look, now it's getting to predictable)
what if they're right
feeding the fire
felt right at the time
but you're not a liar
what if they're right
feeding the fire
felt right at the time
but you're not a lyre
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for my sister
04:02
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anxiety running thru my brain
i wanna be sedated
get your hopes up and put on a show
i wanna be sedated
hoist the sail up and we're ready to go
i wanna be sedated
i will never be alright
somethin 'bout the weather keeps me up forever
i'm not gettin any sleep
it's the 25th this shit still makes me sick
but i wish i didn't feel this way
i lie in bed for hours feelin like nothin
tryin to scratch the pain out of me
i want the girls to save me
want to be there when my nails cut my skin
i want my love to redeem me
if everyday feels like livin in the dark
hold my hand and bury your heart
oh sister you are not alone
anxiety running thru my brain
i wanna be sedated
get your hopes up and put on a show
i wanna be sedated
hoist the sail up and we're ready to go
i wanna be sedated
anxiety running thru my brain
i wanna be sedated
get your hopes up and put on a show
i wanna be sedated
hoist the sail up and we're ready to go
i wanna be sedated
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4. |
don't take me home
04:13
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i don't mind you checkin out
cause i will still be here just waistin all my time
but lawrence is a little town
and there's nothin much to do if you've no one to waste it with
i'm drivin 'round on weekend nights
with some shitty guys i met online
they know where all the parties are
but i guess i just hate havin fun
cause i got outfits for the weekend
and i put roses in my hair
i own the crown of my body
tho i will never where it there
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
i don't mind you gettin out
and leavin here for good
as long as i can text you
but i don't find it easy too
to think about this place
without you drivin 'round
i'm at the store most friday nights
still thinkin 'bout that one time
and watchin all the white cars
i can't wait to leave here too
and start up somewhere new
but till then let's have a good time
(alright take me home)
cause i got outfits for the weekend
and i put roses in my hair
i own the crown of my body
tho i will never where it there
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
home is not where i want to be
oh yeah oo oo yeah
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tinder
02:23
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i've got love in souvenirs
i'm feelin' pretty shit right now
it's just that time of year
it's winter, turn to tinder
find the love of your life online
in pictures paired with bio-bros, bad punks, and lies
all the bones in the back beat bangin' on the bop
callin' you something doomed
facebook faking fucking jock
a lot's from not endearing with the dice
never swiping right
if they don't have your height
i'm too trained like a tootheache
target of the pain
thinkin
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(you got this, bro)
once more, my young friend
i'm holdin up in the castle
the gays and geeks and me
we're comin up and we're assholes
we've been hurtin since 2013
growin up with bullies
now we tend towards sadness
it never gets old
thanks for fuckin my soul
don't be blind to what seems
to cause all the sadness
it's them it's not you
fuck what they put you thru
shout out to young storm comin thru my door
with 20 or more ways to make me feel less shit
but tellin me to try and stop makin lies
you're never gunna make it like
but shout out to my friends and the back that bend
forever over backwards, is it really worth my shit
i'm a fucking trash case, i wish i could say
i will never cut you off
2 0 1 7 bleeds
i don't know what that means
it's washin over me
i'm comin up with the storm
once more my young friend
they're shoutin up at my castle
i'm gay, i'm a geek, i'm me
i'm comin out for a battle
my sword's drawn, but i'm not your queen
it's 2017, whatever that means
i'm never enough, i should just shut-up
but i'll be fine with what seems to make or break me
but i've had enough, let's fuck this shit up
shout to my boy, i'm comin up with joy
i know i'm always on my noise
but with you i never felt like shit
your art's gettin seen
my song's gunna stream
we're both gunna reach our dreams
and shout out to my friends
who i know've always been there for me
but i'm livin in a town that sleeps
i know i gotta leave
i wish that i could say
that i'm never gunna cut you out
2 0 1 7 bleeds
i don't know what that means
it's washin over me
i'm comin up with the storm
2 0 1 7 bleeds
we all know what that means
you better pick a team
we're coming up on a war
fuck this shit up, my young friend
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8. |
queer in ks
04:27
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can't be a guy wearing that
they'll beat you up and call it a slap on the back
can't be a girl wearing that
you'll go outside and get a slap on the ass
tryin to please everybody but me
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9. |
waiting room blues
03:04
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10. |
body can't wait
03:08
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11. |
miss me
02:07
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