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well i was walking along
and humming to this song
that i heard you play last night
i said, “i guess it’s alright”
well i’m not gunna lie
well i didn’t really like that song at all
but now it’s in
it’s in my head
it’s in my dreams when i’m going to bed
i’m dead
i’m dead
when i was driving along
you were humming to that song
i heard you play last night
and when it came on
i said it “oh my gawd i hate this one”
well i am gunna lie
to you i’ll look and say i haven't been crying at all
i’m in my bed, in my head
i’m in my bed, in the car in my head and i think i am
dead
dead
im dead
im dead
im dead
i don’t want it to be over, but you want it to be over
i said , yeah i said, “what’s the point in talkin about this”
i don’t want it to be over but you want it to be over
you said, yeah you said, “i don’t want to talk about this”
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in my dreams
04:00
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one, one more, one more
i’m here, i’m here to forget
one it’s warm, two it’s warm
so so warm, warm warm warm
i heard you found someone
one new, new new new
i am forever here
in hell
well i had thought that maybe
these fucking dreams could be done with me
cause now i see you every night
and all i want is to feel alright
at least i know that’s another day
in another time in another place
but i’ll remember
i’m here to forget
now i think this over
but i wanted to sleep
is it a crime, a crime, i cry
ow i turn this over
and i feel so weak
i cry, i cry, it’s a crime to fall in love
long for her, not me
(it’s a crime to fall in love)
long for her, not me
(it’s a crime to fall in love)
long for her, not me
(it’s a crime to fall in love)
i am forever here
in hell
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second house key
02:53
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should i wait for her
before i go lockin the door
oh nobody knows it but
i'm having a panic attack
and i hate myself
should i forgive the gods
oh can i be somebody's dog
when i die
oh nobody knows it but
i'm having a heart attack for her
and i barely know myself
a dream you hated me
oh elloai, tell me why
a dream you loved me
oh elloai, don’t make me cry
a dream you stood over me
and watched me die
and watched me die
oh no the sound of my crying
oh no the sound of my dying
oh no the sound of my eyes
oh no the sound of my time
oh no the sound of my life
oh no, can i be a dog when i die
with big brown eyes
and a family that loves me
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we are just like them
06:38
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what has it come to
its come to something like this
i piece you back together
in somebody else
it’s never the same
and it feels like hell
with your head in the sink
you remember
that you forgot your keys
i don’t remember
and i don’t want to go
back to get them
cause i drove over to your house
and you told me to wait in the car
and then we talked for like an hour
and it seemed like we didn’t get far
so so why
oh why
so so why
oh why
and when we got back together
i found it just seemed so surreal
what, i didn't hear that last part
come back
come back
come back
come back
come back
no you’re not coming back
i'm starting to feel really shitty
no you’re not coming back
just get over it already
and now i wanna do it again
with someone else, yeah
why are bodies always on the edge
of trying to find someone to sleep with
let the time
turn around
till you
know just what to do
but with time
it just feels worse
it just feels worse
i just need words
let the time
turn around
until you
know just what you’ve found
don’t get caught up on this
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september makes me think
05:34
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well you were on my mind
yeah, you were all the time
that the world had to give
now i'm left here
it’s sweet
it’s bittersweet
and i cry cry cry
it’s bittersweet
but it hurts and you know it
and you know it
and you know it
i smell the fire
september makes me think
wh, wh, why are things changin
i've just been waitin here
well the fire’s been burning
but I didn't start it what what
september makes me think
the fire's been burning all night long
and i don’t know who did it at all
but september makes me think
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no comforting words
04:03
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I remember when I played this song for you
you were holding my holding my holding my hips
and i loved it
i wanna sing to you every night
sing you to sleep with my eyes
but hopefully you’ll be asleep
by the time that i get to the sad part of this song
oh in my songs there is always a sad part
why can it never be happy all the way thru
morning comes at different times around the world
makes talking to you hard
oh i'm just guessin that now i might have some more time
to be alone in my room
but i've had enough of that to last a lifetime
maybe i will travel too
somewhere the weather’s nice and i can pretend like it’s cool
that we barely talk on the phone
oh man time travel sucks
i'm just tryin to get back home
and we barely text anymore
well what’s new
i'm just tryin to get back to you
man we hardly talk anymore
well what's old
i'm just tryin to get back in touch with you
and when i don’t text you back i know that’s cold
but I just don’t have a lot to say
don’t be shy to share what you’ve been hiding
i mean come on this is 2016, whatever that means
it shouldn't matter much at all
cause i am still your friend
even though you may read indifference across my eyes
and don’t be shy to show that you've been crying
i mean come on you know that i love you
and don’t be shy to show that you've got tears in your eyes
you know that i'll hold you
with bright red tears out the corner of my eyes
well i couldn't let go if you asked me to
we barely talk anymore
well breaking up sucks
i just want to get to sleep
with night-dried tears out the corner of my eyes
well i couldn't get out of bed if i tried
we barely talk anymore well what’s new
i just hope that i'll see you soon
i didn't think it would matter much
i didn't think it’d matter much come fall
oh what did all of this mean to you
cause now i can see what you do
i really thought it’d take you longer than this
to find someone new
but bright blue eyes could hypnotize
just about all the world at once
and what about all your cryin and realising
i doubt that he’d know what to do
and all your cryin and realisations
i didn’t know what to do
so now i pretend to sing to you in the dark
i don’t know who i'm talking to
but now i hit send i can’t hold back my emotions
though i wish that i could for you
you let me go, don’t let me go
you let me go, don’t let me go
you let me know, that you wanted to go
but i'll be there for you baby
you let me know, that you didn’t want to no more
and when i say no, it’s cause you and me need someone to hold
i wanna be there for you baby
no, you and me need someone to hold
you let me know, when you need someone to hold
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i really want you back, but how long should i wait for you
i know that sounds bad for me, but i will always be yours
i guess we could move on now, but who else could be meant for us
we’ll take what we've learned and love someone only half as much
i'm not even mad, just a little sad
that someone didn’t love you as much as me
cause you deserve more, oh i will always be yours
i'm not even sad, just a little sad, i've never felt so fucking sad
i wanna ask you, what is all of this for
and we walk back to my car, and i can’t stand that you feel so far away
at least i got to see you today
and i drive back to your house and you look at me like there’s something else
and i say “i wanna kiss you”
and you say “do you want to?”
do i do
do i do
do i do i do i do
do i do
do i do have eyes for you
but what if it will always be you
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wasteland
04:48
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don’t take this confession as self-hate
i’m not tryin to make
what i did seem alright
cause when you say
i understand with such conviction i can’t stand
i turn away and try to make
sense of my destructive ways
but before i go
before the gates close
i wanna give you my hat
to keep your thoughts inside your head
and my coat to keep you warm
when i am dead to you
you asked of me “oh elloai
won’t you draw me a chimera”
and i said “where love?”
to show you i'm there
you said softly “no
not from the air
draw me as one
till i tell you it’s done”
so i looked to the water for a long time without her
and i placed her hands over my sorry eyes
i looked up and said “you weren't supposed to move”
but maybe someday we will come back to
where we once loved
it’s like i don’t even know you
we belong to the heart of our first love
we might be forever dumb
don’t beat yourself up now
oh bitch i am your fool
maybe someday i will follow thru with somebody new
and i'll have what i had with you
don't’ forget
i forget you, my love
do you still think of me at night
when you’re lonely
baby i wish i could hold you tight
oh just one more time
won’t you come on back to me tonight
i just want more time
won’t you come on back to me tonight
oh just one more time
won't you come on back to me tonight
i just want more time
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all you need is love
05:36
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you may have been gone but you knew where to find me
in october i was lost in my favorite songs
and yeah i was a mess and you could tell i was depressed
so you wrote me a letter that i never saw
and you came over to my house
and i felt you in the air
when you looked at me from over there
man my eyes are rivers can hardly see
oh when you’re looking at me oh what does it mean
when my heart is screaming oh hold me close
when it just seems like you’re starting to let me go
so is my art just then about a version of us
where we are both happy and there was nothing but love
you made me feel worse than i’ve ever before
it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright
it’s alright all you need is love it’s alright
it’s alright all i need is love
it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright
with your hand on my back
it’s taking me back
to a summer night such a long time ago
well i've been here before
can't remember what for
well i do but i wish that i didn't
do you remember which door
we used to sneak in
and take the elevator up to the top
and watch the show
going on down below
holding hands on the roof
with our heads held low
but now we’re the show
what’s going on down below
you’re stealing my heart
with your head held low
when was the last time
we could look in our eyes
and not realise that the end was so nigh
so i guess then it’s right
to end the night
with what for us amounts to a fight
about love, all i need is love
you made me feel worse than i’ve ever before
it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright it’s alright
it’s alright all you need is love it’s alright
it’s alright all you need is love
it’s alright all you need is love it’s alright
it’s alright all i need is love
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i want to go back
06:05
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i want to kiss you
i don’t wanna rhyme but i love you
i don’t want to cry but i miss you
i don’t wanna lie but i’ll be okay without you
i cannot stop crying but i know in time
i will fall asleep
wake up and repeat
but it’s hard to fall asleep
cause everything reminds me of you
give yourself a chance
give me the line
to sing in time
with some happy shit that despise
you say that you are mine
and that you'll be all the time
but i don’t wanna hold out any longer
i wanna hold on to you forever
so i imagine you saying something like
well i'll make some time for you if you’d like
and i’d say i’d like that quite a lot
but that was then and now is a different question
so now i sing the happy blues
and i build myself up to look at you
and now i hate it when you cry at me
cause it reminds me of why i can’t
kiss you
kiss you
kiss you
when i close my eyes
i see your face
and i want to go back
i’d give anything, anything, anything
when i open my eyes
i don’t see your face
and i think about cryin
but i feel like a disgrace, i just wanna be graced
cause when i close my eyes
i see your face
and i want to go back
i’d give anything, anything, anything
i wanna go back
i’d give anything
but i wouldn't do anything differently
i wanna go back
just to go back
i wanna go back
i’d give anything
but i wouldn't do anything differently
i wanna go back
we’ve gotta go back
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goodbye, on piano
04:44
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i never thought i’d be leaving you
but then again, i never thought that i would meet you
the time has come, to be by ourselves, and be ourselves
am i holding you back, no
i just wanna go back
holding my hand
for the first time in the park
at least memories can’t go far
when our bodies divorce our hearts
and kissing your head
everytime before i leave
was like giving you a part of me
that you never have to give back to me
too many words that in the end won’t be heard when i am falling asleep
thinking about you on repeat
i was just hear to play piano
and reminisce about shadow
but then i saw your eyeshadow
running down your cheeks and i feel so weak
when you say you don’t want to leave me
i wish i could hold you baby
you don’t even have to hug me back
and we don’t have to go back
i hate it when you look at me like that
we don’t have to talk about before
i just wish you’d told me more
maybe then our eyes wouldn't be so sore
you and me don’t have to be alone no more
we can start over
me and you don’t have to be alone no more
we can start over
you and me don’t have to be alone no more
we can start over
you and me don’t have to be alone no more
we can start over
too many words that in the end won’t be heard when i am falling asleep
thinking about you on repeat
two little birds who in the end will be hurt when you are walking away
i just can’t stop watching you walk away
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